Saturday, April 30, 2011

U9- Final


It is important for all health and wellness professionals to develop themselves psychologically, spiritually, and physically in order for them to truly be healers for others. It is a well known fact that we cannot see something that we are unaware exists. Therefore if a health care professional is only developed and learned in the importance of physical health, they will attribute all aliments of their patients to the physical body. While a patient may be getting headaches because they have a psychological issue that professional would only be able to treat the physical headache. This would be a temporary solution to the symptom, but until the source of the pain is found and treated appropriately, the headaches will persist. Personally in order to become a good therapist, I need to develop in all three areas. I cannot help a patient with a psychological problem who has a debilitating and untreated physical ailment, nor one without some connection to their own spirituality.
            When we assessed our heath in Unit 3 I scored myself at a 2-3 out of 10 physically, a 6-7 psychologically, and a 5 spiritually. I fell like those are still pretty accurate. I am only a 2-3 in physical health because I am quite overweight. With further consideration I think I am closer to a 5 physically. While I am overweight, I am not suffering from any major illnesses or ailments. I think I scored myself so low because it is a physical issue that I can control. Psychologically I would rate myself at a 8, maybe a bit higher. I have a very strong foundation of information in psychology (a bachelors degree worth, almost) and I am in therapy. I have good self-reflection and am able to be objective most of the time. Also I have a willingness to assume responsibility for myself and make changes when necessary. Spiritually I am doing fairly well also. I would rate myself around a 7. I was feeling very disconnected to my spirituality back in unit 3, but I realized that I wasn’t disconnected from my spirituality, just my church and that’s okay. I have a strong sense of connection to my creator and to this planet. I am LDS (mormon) and it was difficult at first for me to meditate. I felt like I was breaking some rule. I felt especially guilty when I started to feel more connected through meditation than I did with prayer. With prayer I always felt like I was taking to myself, or that I was talking to someone who wasn’t there, I was too consumed with my own thoughts and feelings of being rejected too listen for a response. With meditation I was forced to quite those thoughts and feelings, after a while I could really let go. I think a combination of the two will be my key to a very strong sense of spirituality.  I will be able to use the practices of meditation to calm my heart and mind enough to pray to my Heavenly Father on a completely different level, a level where I can really listen to that still, small voice in return.
            Going forward I am most concerned with my physical health. There is a fitness center here called The New Well (link). They are a weight loss program that works with your nutrition, offers counseling and stress reduction, and really takes a holistic approach to weight loss and overall physical health. I joined them last week and I really look forward to permanent results. Also the projected that I could reach my goal in 9 months and I am going on a cruise in 10 months so it works out quite well! For my psychological health I will continue to see my therapist. I also have been working very hard to limit my stress. I live in a house with a husband who is ADD, a son who has Asperger’s, and two sons with ADHD. Needless to say I am the only one in my house who is ever even slightly organized. I have “SuperNanny’d” our house. I have put our entire household on a routine and I have put visuals throughout the house of our routine, menu for the week, and chore charts. I have also put those three boys on a reward system which they earn beads for all kinds of positive things and can spend those beads on all kinds of rewards like TV time or a new toy. It has been working very well. As part of my personal routine, I have included 10 minutes per day of dancing, just turning up the tunes and shaking my tail feather. I can’t explain it, it is physically a workout, but it is also fun and exhilarating. As far as my spiritual wellbeing I am committed to doing 10 minutes of meditation per day to start. I think I will do a short meditation exercise before my nightly prayer as well. This will allow me to slow down, get out of my own head, and truly commune with God. I have also committed to hiking more. This will help me in all three ways, physically I will be getting exercise, psychologically it is a great way to clear your head, and spiritually there is no where I feel more connected than in the mountains. Once I get a bit healthier physically I am planning on going to my sister in-law’s yoga studio where she teaches hot yoga. They do yoga in a room at 100-something degrees. I used to love yoga before I had my babies, and I am excited to do it again.
            In order to track my progress I plan on keeping a journal. Also my coach at The New Well will be in touch with me three times per week to talk about how my goals are going. This will be a good support. I tend to get really excited about changes like this and stick to my goals very well for the first several weeks or months, but I lose momentum and eventually end up back at square one. I think I will set up a reward system for myself to keep me going during this time. As part of my weight loss plans my husband and I are putting ten dollars in savings for every pound I lose, when I reach my goal I get to take that money and buy some new clothes. That is a goal that I think will keep me motivated.  I am also a very routine based person, I think that once I get in the routine for a few months, it will become just a part of my day. I am excited to take the wealth of information I got from this course and build a new me!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

U8 - My favorite 2 Exercises.

I never got the opportunity to do the Subtle Mind practice because my CD is weird, but I really enjoyed the Loving-kindness (about the 4th time I tried it) and the Rainbow exercise from one of the first few units. I also really benefited from the pain relief one that I found when I couldn't concentrated a few weeks ago because of a piercing pain in my neck. I think these ones were more beneficial to me because I was really able to visualize a tangible thing. For example colors coming into or out of certain parts of my body in the rainbow exercise. I also was able to put meaning to those particular parts of my body. In fact I was feeling quite ill a few weeks ago and I had a splitting headache. I couldn't really concentrate on anything, my head was pounding and my "to do" list was multiplying. I took some of my essential oils, the peppermint one, and just put one drop on my "third eye" Chakra right on my forehead. I then did the pain relief meditation and was able to visualize the source of my pain within my body and release it into the Earth. (I envisioned the pain as these shadowy crawly creatures) I finished my meditation feeling completely refreshed. A combination of aroma therapy, mediation, and understanding what part of my body is the window to certain powers within my body really helped me overcome.

I also really like the loving kindness practice. I feel like I'm really doing a service to others and I feel very good about myself after spending 20-30 minutes concentrating on releasing the suffering of others. It has helped me to grow more connected to my husband and to be more compassionate about his trials rather than annoyed by them.

U7- Meeting Asciepius

It took me a few tries on this one too. I had a hard time really visualizing a person whom I hold in high esteem and wisdom. The first time I tried it my mind was filtering through all the people I could think of when out of nowhere a very strong image of my best friend's foster parents when I was a teen popped into my head. I focused on them for a while because it was so strong of an image, but I think I was distracted by something I don't remember. I thought it was very interesting that those two people who I always loved, but never really thought too much about later in my life were the people who stuck out for me. I am considering finding them and just telling them I was grateful for all of the things they did for me when I was a grieving and angry teen.

The second time I tried I used a well known Marriage and Family Therapist and Author John Gottman. I met him at a conference last fall and he was just a wealth of knowledge. I was able to stay a bit more focused this time.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

U4 - Loving-Kindness Humor

So I finally was able to settle my mind long enough to really do the loving-kindness meditation and it well very well with a humorous ending. I typed "loving" into the search bar of my itunes and found it on the list. I did the practice quite well. I was able to really hold my husband in my heart in the first steps then for the second part, I thought of my 13yr old son who is being bullied. I concentrated on taking in his suffering and breathing out good kind thoughts. I actually visualized breathing in black smoke and breathing out white smoke. I felt like and emotional human filter.

The humorous part was when the practice was over and this woman's soothing voice telling be to carry on my loving-kindness mind for the remainder of the day when the track ends and my brilliant itunes shuffles to the next song containing the word "loving"... Of course it was Joan Jett's "I Hate Myself fo Loving You". It was pretty funny.

LibbyK

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Pain Relief Meditation

Once again I tried to do the meditation assignment and couldn't concentrate past my distractions. This time it was this sharp, shooting pain I've had in my neck for a few days now. So determined to overcome this struggle I decided to find a pain relief meditation to do first. I found this one on Youtube : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XwiiWrt3Ld8 

It was quite an experience. It talks about going in through the mind's eye into your body and visualizing both your healthy body and the source of the pain. I was surprised to find that my healthy part of my body just seemed to glow a whiteish-blue color. The source of my pain was this cluster of shadowy critters crawling around really fast. Like spiders and scorpians. It was strange that that's what I see as pain. Also it has you release your pain back into the earth which worked well with my critters because I just saw them burrow deep into the Earth.

Anyway I just wanted to share my experience, I'll do the assigned meditation later in the week too.

LibbyK

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Gluten-Free, Casein-Free and Feingold Diets...

This is the second night in a row that I find myself pulling an all-nighter. I am trying to sort through the endless amount of information online about the nutritional changes that I can make for my 4 year old son who was just diagnosed with ADHD. For several weeks I have been loosely following the Feingold Diet and it has made a big difference, it cut his meds in HALF!!! I'd love to get to a point where I cut the meds out completely...

So I reach out to you classmates, do any of you know anything firsthand about these diets? I am struggling with where to start and what supplements I can use that aren't so expensive...

Thanks ahead for your input! :-)

Thursday, April 7, 2011

U6 -Loving-Kindness and Integral Health Assessment

Well, that was informative! I have discovered that I am incredibly self-centered. I scored low on the interpersonal and worldly axises. I have been spending all of my time for the last couple years in crisis mode and doing damage control in psychospiritual and I have lost track of looking outside myself. Not myself so much as my immediate family. I focus all of my attention on my kids and my marriage and even my own healing, I have become absolutely univolved in the world around me. How horrible is that. I used to volunteer, donate and attend rallies all the time, and I haven't done most of those things in over 3 years! Wow, what an eye opener.

Also I think on a subconscious level I feel guilt and shame over this because all three times I tried the Loving-Kindness exercise I just couldn't. In fact my heart would race and I would feel more anxious. Maybe I didn't want to think about someone else and take on their struggle because I'm just too self-centered right now...

Hmmm....

LibbyK

Spring Cleaning!

I am posting this in response to discussion questions about changing your attitude toward the necessary things that we hate to do. For example I hate to clean my house, with 3 boys, 2 kids under age 5 and 2 kids plus my husband who have ADD/ADHD (and are unorganized slobs) my house will get very messy very quickly. I have for a long time, been under the negative attitude of "what's the point". Lately I decided to change my attitude and just take my house one room at a time. Each room has been taking several days, but by the end it is clean and organized and I feel so much better! Knowing the outcome makes doing the task a positive experience.

For example check out my new office!  By the way you should know it used to be just the desk with a mountain of papers and books on it so bad that I had to hold the mouse and the keyboard in my lap! Here it is now though  :-)

 Check out my Bathroom too!!!



I'm starting to love Spring Cleaning... this could be a problem, but I have to say I find it much easier to get centered when my house doesn't look like an episode of Hoarders!
LibbyK

Saturday, April 2, 2011

... isn't it ironic.

I just thought I'd take a second to share the irony of my current situation.

I'm sitting at a coffee shop on a cold and windy Saturday afternoon drinking a double shot mocha, eating a piece of delicious cappuccino rum cheesecake, and taking frequent smoke breaks while I stress about getting my homework done so that I can get back to my messy house full of rowdy children. I am on a time crunch because I have a weeks worth of housework to catch up, and I'm recovering from mild food poisoning. Oh, and the ironic part? The project I'm trying to pound out is all about Mental Fitness. That's right I am trying to write about how important it is to maintain a healthy mind, body, and spirit.

So, do I get Hypocrite of the Year award or what?!?!

Friday, April 1, 2011

AAAARRRRGGGG!!!

So I'm having the hardest time with these practices! I haven't summed up the loving kindness practice from last week yet even though I tried to do it three different times and I just tried to do the subtle mind practice, but I can't. Help! Two weeks ago I was out to dinner with my family and I ran into the  man who raped me when I was 13. I'm in therapy and we're working through it, but ever since running into him I feel like all those feelings are rushing back up to the surface and I'm standing here with my finger in the dam. Each time I try to calm my mind and do one of these meditation practices I feel like I'm pulling my finger out of the dam. I know I just need to set up a safe environment where I can just let it all out and either scream and yell, or cry, but I just can't. I'm too scared.
Sorry classmates.
Libby